Tuesday, April 8, 2014

It's a........GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's right folks.  We're having a precious baby girl!!!!!!!!!!! 
Last Sunday was a day we'll never forget.  A day full of SO much anticipation, it gave our wedding day a run for it's money! We've been prepping for this party for the past 6 weeks and finally....the day arrived.  Jon and I got up super early to finish all of our last minute "to do's," including hanging every last pink & blue puff ball from our ceiling along with the 8 million burlap banners I made.
For the record, Jon made these fruit baby carriages all on his own. That's what happens when you tell a man you don't think he can do something.....  ;)
One of my favorite parts was the "video booth" we set up.  As much as I love the idea of photo booths, I thought for this occasion, videos would be more sentimental to show our little girl someday.  I haven't seen the final product yet, but I should get it this weekend!  Can't wait!!
Now, onto a few more pics from the party.
The day could NOT have been more beautiful!!  It was 70 degrees and sunny, one of the most beautiful days we've had this spring.
Proud Grandparents!
My Mom & Aunts....all Team Pink from the start.
If I had to choose one photo that captures every last emotion of this day, it would
have to be this one....
You know that feeling of your life flashing before your eyes? 
That was this moment.
Both of us fully expected to open that box to see little blue balloons....and when I saw pink, my heart exploded with so much love!  I fell in love with my beautiful daughter right then and there.
For Jon? 
His heart became a protector's heart.  Right then in that moment, he envisioned walking his baby girl down the aisle one day....only to give her away to another man. 
He envisioned his delicate baby girl, who he will now spend his life loving & protecting
with all that he is. 
Right then in that moment, I fell more in love with my husband. 
The father to our beautiful baby girl.
And here we are, halfway thru this journey.  I can't believe it!
This past weekend we decided to begin our registry & boy was that an adventure.  I mean, who the hell thought it was a good idea to create 700 different kinds of pacifiers???
Not only did we register, but we got a jump start on building our baby girl's wardrobe.
Turns out, we are addicted to baby consignment sales.  All of these clothes....like $3-$5 an outfit!
And last but not least, this past weekend we also celebrated this little man's boy's 8th birthday!
Next up....NURSERY PREP!!!!!!!!!! 
Tomorrow I'll officially be 21 weeks with only 19 weeks to go!! 
This pregnancy has been such a breeze that it's literally flown by. 
 I'm now feeling a bit frightened that I might blink & wake up, only to be in
labor and racing to the hospital. 
Lately I've felt as if I want time to slow down a little bit. 
What if we're not ready yet?  What if the baby cries all the time?  What if we never sleep again?  What if the smell of baby poop makes me throw up?  What if we never have peace & quiet again?  What if the carseat is a pain in the ass to lug around?  What if she gets sick? What if we break her?
What if....what if...what if.
But even with all the fear, I still feel so much excitement.
 Yes, I'm scared shitless. 
But even though I'm scared shitless, I still can't wait to meet our baby girl.....just give me
19 more weeks, please. :) 

Monday, March 10, 2014

Baby Bellies & Birthdays

Well, hello hello hello.  These past 4 weeks have just FLOWN by.  When you get pregnant everyone tells you, "Don't worry...before you know it, you'll be at the finish line, about to pop that baby right out." 6 weeks ago I just smiled politely and thought, I'm going to be pregnant foreverrrrrrrrr!!!
And then, wham.  Here I am, almost halfway done!!!!!
Before we get to chatting about my new little baby bump that popped out a couple days ago, let's do a recap of the past few weeks in photos, shall we?
I celebrated my big 28 on February 15th...and it's quite possible it's the first sober birthday I've had in years, but honestly, I wouldn't have had it any other way.
I spent the day shopping with my mom in which we cleaned out several maternity stores here in Kansas City.  The day was followed by date night with my manfriend that included a snazzy dinner & a little play in downtown Kansas City that featured a ton of fantastic Frank Sinatra music.  And also a ton of people with canes who were wearing incontinence products.  I'm convinced we were the youngest people there by about 30+ years, but regardless, something super different than the norm & we loved it. 

(wellllll.....loved it might have been a stretch, we left at intermission)
Hey, mama gets tired early these days.  
The weekend after included a trip to watch some bull ridin'!  If I haven't mentioned it before, this is one of our FAVORITE things to do together.  We love the atmosphere, the cheap nachos & watching those brave cowboys brave those crazy ass bulls!
A few weeks later, we then celebrated this little guys birthday!!!!!


We also got our babymoon booked!!!!!!  May 28th CANNOT get here soon enough! 
And as of the past couple weeks, I've been knee deep in party planning mode...because on March 30th, we find out what this sweet little bug is going to be!!!!!  Found an amazing shop on Etsy, chose an invite with a style we loved, decided on verbiage that suited us both and
this is how they turned out!  I'm in love.
Yesterday all the gals in my family gathered to help all my Pinterest boards come to life.
Seriously, can someone remind me WHAT we all did before Pinterest?????

Now, let's talk baby bellies.

I have to be honest, I neverrrrrrrrrr thought the day would come. 
But as of about 48 hours ago, it came.  I woke up & bam, there she was.
And if I'm being totally honest, I'm pretty excited.
Something about a baby bump just makes this journey so much more....real.
I could go on and on about the current size of the baby, I could talk morning sickness and I could go in detail about weight gain.  But honestly, who the hell cares??????? 
I sure don't.
We as human beings are blessed to be able to create a human being with the one we love most, and then grow that human being inside of us.  A healthy, happy, sweet little baby. 
And yes, you pack on a few pounds along the way
Now, what I do want to talk about is how fucking cool that is.
Friday night we were laying in bed and all of the sudden I felt this thunk....and I just knew. 
That was our baby!!!!!  
Pretty special moment for us both & I can't wait to feel it again.
My next appointment is Friday, March 28th.  I'll be just shy of my 20 week mark, so this appointment will be when they measure the little one; the little heart, the bones, the head & most importantly, they'll be taking a peek at the little pee pee.  From there, my doctor will write the gender down & seal in an envelope.  I'll give the envelope to my girlfriend who will ensure the surprise is well under wraps. We'll find out in the same moment of those we love most & I am just SO excited to share that experience with our friends & family.  
That's all I have for now.  If you need me, you can find me with a hot glue gun in hand & scissors in the other.  I can't WAIT to be back soon with party photos!! 

Three weeks from today! 

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Oh, Baby

Talk about a cliffhanger, huh?  I disappear of the face of the earth, pop back by le blog, drop a bomb like,"hey, I'm Pregnant!" 
And then disappear again.

What a bitch.

Truth be told, I was so damn shocked, I was speechless. 

But here we are, 12 weeks into this mind blowing journey & I think it's finally starting to set in.
I'm growing a human being inside my abdomen. 
Crazy, beautiful & terrifying all at once.

I figured I'd kick myself if I didn't document this wild journey we're on, so here goes.

Let's start from beginning.

Now, do Jon & I know how babies are made.

Does that mean you still don't freak the hell out when it actually happens?
Hell no.

When Sheldon got so sick last fall, it scared the hell out of all of us.  Life seemed fleeting in that moment, so we figured, hey.....let's throw all our "plans" out the window & give this a whirl. 
And bam.

It happened.

Must have been our time, I guess!

We found out on a Wednesday evening, December 18th to be exact.  I was 1 or 2 days late but that's not out of the norm for me.  Jon was working in our garage on a railing for our sidewalk.  I went up to the garage to keep him company & suddenly felt this super strong wave of nausea.  I chalked it up to the flu going around at work & just figured it was my time.  Jon was much more suspicious something was up, so he jumped in his truck & ran to the gas station for a bottle of sprite, some Pepto Bismol & two pregnancy tests. 

When he got home, I went straight to the bathroom for a pee that would change my life. 

 (Sidenote: Only a real blogger photographs her pee stick)

60 seconds later, the faintest little plus sign appeared. 
Tears welled up in my eyes, I yelled for Jon & so began our journey.

Oh, and I puked my guts out that entire night.

The next morning we went to get a blood test to be sure and found out we were
just barely 5 weeks along.

A week later, the holidays began.  A Christmas holiday we'll never forget. 

We broke the news to both families & tears were had by all. 
I can't help but start to tear up just thinking about that week. 
Eh, probably the hormones.

Then we broke the news to Belle.  Yeah....that didn't go over so well.
Homegirl was not happy.  What, she'll have to share us with someone?  What the hell is that about?

Again, I'm sorry I left you hanging for the past 6 weeks.  

Honestly, a part of me was scared to get too excited. 
What if something happened?  What if we lost the baby?
 Did this really just happen?  What did we get ourselves into?  

I just needed some time to let this really set in, so thanks for your patience.
I treasure you all & am SO excited to finally begin sharing my journey with you!

Now, onto my first baby bump photo!

Let's talk First Trimester. 
Is it as terrible as some make it out to be?
For me, absolutely NOT.

 Have I been nauseous, at times.  Yes, I've had a handful of hard days, but not hunkered down over a toilet kind of hard day. 

Food aversions....YES.
For instance, the thought of cheese dip from a Mexican restaurant makes me want to vomit, which is just plain wrong if you ask me. 

Now, stove top stuffing & macaroni & cheese...come to mama.

I'd say the main thing I've felt over the past few months is fatigue.  If I could have an afternoon nap everyday, I'd be golden.  In fact, I'm pretty sure I've spent every weekend napping and it's been glorious. 

 In closing I'd like to share something that helped me find perspective early on in my pregnancy, a beautiful note from a beautiful friend who's now in her second pregnancy.

  When you're pregnant, it's easy to focus on the negative stuff, in fact, our society tends to only focus on the hard parts of pregnancy.  If you sit back & think about it, how often do you hear women rave about how much they loved being pregnant?  How they loved feeling nauseas, how they loved gaining weight, how they loved passing up the wine weekend after weekend.

Not often, and honestly, I think that's super sad.

I got this beautiful note from my beautiful friend on a one of my "hard" days. I was tired, cranky, feeling crappy & just plain feeling sorry for myself.  When I read her note, the tears just flowed.  In that moment, something clicked inside me & I promised right then and there to check myself.

I promised, even on the "hard" days, to always remember that the little human I'm growing inside my body is the most beautiful blessing Jon & I will ever receive. 

Her note just resonated in my core & I'd like to share a few lines.....

"You are going to get fat, really fat, but this will be the only time you will be excited about being fat, so just love being fat.  I did end up with a few stretch marks, but they remind me that I was the person responsible for making my baby girl and bringing her into this world as a healthy baby.  Those marks are a sign of my girl. With everything I'm going through with this pregnancy, I can endure anything for 9 months to get a lifetime with my babies.  The biggest thing I'm excited about for you, is that a baby really teaches you how to love."

In that moment, I realized how blessed I was to experience being pregnant. To experience bringing a baby into this world with my husband.  And for that, I'll forever be thankful.