Wednesday, March 15, 2017

SJ | LA Wedding Dress Shoot

Oh Lordy, these pictures may just be my favorite of all time.  

From the moment I found out I would be blessed with a little girl, I just knew someday I'd want photos like this to cherish for all time.  My wedding day is a day I'll never, ever forget for as long as I live, and I hope someday, my daughters feel the same about theirs.  You better believe these photos will make their way into their wedding celebration in another 30 or 40 would be ok, too, years.  I'm quickly approaching the day I'll return to work, so I knew I needed to take these photos now or I may never get around to it.  

Wrapping Sadie up in my dress, using my petticoat as a backdrop was just too dang cute for words. Then, seeing Lara standing there with my veil draped over her head and her lips coated in pretty pink lipstick for the first time, well, that just took it to a whole new level.  

I hope you love 'em as much as I do.  Well, maybe not quite as much, but you get the gist. 


Wednesday, March 1, 2017

SJ || 3 Months

My precious little angel is 3 months old today, and honestly, I'm not sad about it. Sure, I love love love having a newborn.  You just can't beat all the snuggles, but I am totally loving watching her develop her own personality!  It's totally cool to see her discover things around her, to recognize her family, to smile at her big sis, to stare at bright objects, to begin talking in her own little language, it's just amazing.  I am taking an extra long maternity leave this time, and as much as I feel excitement to get back to work and spend the day around adults doing what I love, I can't help but enjoy spending this extra time with my girls.  

Yes, girls, as in plural.  As some of you know, I was feeling tremendous Mom Guilt last week about Lara not being as connected to me. So, I did what any mother would do, made a super rash and emotional decision and pulled Lara out of full time daycare and dropped her down to part time.  Meaning she's home with me on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  

I'm not going to pretend there haven't been moments where I regretted this decision, as let me tell ya, she's a handful. But dangit, she's a cute handful.

So, there's that.

But back to my littlest girl, Miss Sadie June.  

Sadie June: By The Month

Sadie is.....Three Months Old!

Sadie Weighs .....Probably somewhere around 12-13 pounds

Sadie's Height.....??

Sadie is Wearing.....She can squeeze into 0-3 months, but really her 3-6 month items fit best. 

Sadie is Sleeping....AMAZING. She's officially in her crib FULL TIME.  To the moms who have kiddos that don't sleep great, you may not want to read this part, but both girls go down around 7:30 and for the most part, they sleep until 6:30 am.  Like, what!?!?  We swear by the Moms on Call books, because their sleep training strategies have worked wonders for our girls, however they are big advocates for the "Cry It Out" method, and I know this is controversial to some.  We waited until last week to begin utilizing the CIO method with Sadie.  The first night, she cried for 30 minutes.  And it sucked.  Night two, she cried for maybe 5-10 minutes.  Now, less than a week later, we lay her in her crib and she falls right to sleep.  Again, for us, it works.  And we all sleep.  So, there's that.

Sadie is Eating.....mostly 5 oz

Sadie paper.  
Amazon.  Now. 
Your kid will love it.

Sadie Hates....when Mom sneezes!  Seriously, it FREAKS HER OUT.  Almost everytime she goes into complete hysterics and I have to calm her down.  I have to agree with her, my sneeze it quite startling.  And loud. And typically comes with no warning.

Thursday, February 23, 2017

I miss you, daughter.

This morning I slipped into your room quietly, just before the sunrise.  You were just waking up, still cuddled under your pink, fuzzy blanket, clinging to the cloth diaper you've slept with since birth. I stroked your hair, asking you quietly if you wanted to watch the sun "wake up" with me.  It was still dark in your room, but I could see your silhouette nodding yes.  You quietly slid out of bed. We walked over to your window, opened the blinds and there it was, the beautiful sun, rising in the fluorescent pink sky.

You stood there in amazement, while picking your nose of course.  I sat on the edge of your tiny toddler bed, with you in front of me.  You're still so small, I can wrap my arms around your entire body.  I breathed in the smell of your freshly clean hair from your bath the night before.  I kissed your delicate, soft cheek and just breathed in this moment.  This moment of still.  A stillness we don't get to share often these days, because you have a baby sister now that warrants most of mommy's attention.

The way you've acclimated to becoming a big sister has astonished your daddy and I.  Shocked us, really.  You adore that little sister of yours, asking for her when you first wake up and insisting you kiss her little forehead every night before bed.  It occurred to me this morning, as you walked out the door after refusing to hug me goodbye, that the love you used to show me, you now reserve for your sister.

After that magical moment we shared watching the beautiful pink sunrise, you refused to let me dress you..  You refused to let me comb your hair.  You refused to kiss me goodbye.

I chose not to force you, while my heart silently shattered inside.  You walked out the door, hand in hand with daddy, turning around just long enough to wave goodbye to my silhouette in the doorway.

I closed the door and tears began pouring down my cheeks.  In that moment, I realized how distant you've become lately. You insist that daddy do bedtime every night. Insist that daddy dress you, that daddy comb your hair...

Since your sister was born, you have watched me care for her, feed her, bathe her, rock her.  You have fallen in love with your baby sister, just as I have. You've also become fiercely independent, perhaps assuming Mommy doesn't have any love left to give you.

But that's the beautiful thing about mommies.  We have special hearts, hearts that grow with each child that's born. See, our hearts have to grow in size in order to hold all the love we now carry.  I know that's confusing to you right now, because you see your baby sister in my arms often these days. But see, mommies are full of an endless supply of deep, abounding love.  A love you won't understand until you become a Mommy.

Every morning we rise, no matter how tired we are, mommies rise like the beautiful sun in that pink fluorescent sky.  We rise, ready to shower that love over ALL of our babies.   

So when you're ready, I'm here.

Just don't take too long....

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